Again, I tell you that I'm nobody important or special in the world. I'm average. In some ways, maybe below-average. Here is a story that proves that point:
The April 2016 visiting teaching message was about how we are daughters of Heavenly Father. Unfortunately, it was my turn to teach the lesson that month. As soon as I saw what the topic was, I dreaded it. I don't really have a testimony that I'm a daughter of God. I logically know it. I've been taught it since I was a child, and I said it every Sunday as a Young Woman. I recently received a blessing where I was told I'm a daughter of Heavenly Parents and I absolutely believe it - at least mentally. But my heart doesn't feel it.
I prayed and prayed the first two weeks of April, "Please, help me know that I'm Your daughter. I need to teach this lesson and I don't have a real testimony of it! Please!" The answer never came.
After teaching my lesson, instead of bearing my testimony of the doctrine, I admitted, "This is something I don't have a testimony of yet. This is something I've been praying off and on about since I was a teenager. But the answer has never come." It was horrible to admit, but my companion and the women I visit taught at that time were three of my best friends in the ward, so it was a safe space to make that confession.
I won't give up. I'll continue to ask. Someday I will have that testimony, and will know in my heart what I know in my head!
My lesson, for the curious:
The Family proclamation says, “All human beings—male and female—are created in the image of God. Each is a beloved spirit son or daughter of heavenly parents, and, as such, each has a divine nature and destiny.”
Sister Sheri L. Dew gave a great talk in Women’s Conference about our divine identity. She said, “Our spirits long for us to remember the truth about who we are, because the way we see ourselves, our sense of identity, affects everything we do. It affects the way we behave, the way we respond to uncertainty, the way we see others, the way we feel about ourselves, and the way we make choices. It affects the very way we live our lives.”
I searched for General Conference talks that explain how knowing that we are daughters of God influences our lives and came up with three ways.
#1 - Knowing we are daughters of God gives us self confidence.
James E. Faust said in the 1999 General Conference, “Being a daughter of God means that if you seek it, you can find your true identity. You will know who you are. This will make you free—not free from restraints, but free from doubts, anxieties, or peer pressure. You will not need to worry, “Do I look all right?” “Do I sound OK?” “What do people think of me?” A conviction that you are a daughter of God gives you a feeling of comfort in your self-worth. It means that you can find strength in the balm of Christ. It will help you meet the heartaches and challenges with faith and serenity.”
Sister Dew said: “As we come to understand [our divine nature], we will feel a greater sense of mission and more confidence living as a woman of God in a world that doesn't necessarily celebrate women of God. We will cheer each other on rather than compete with each other, because we'll feel secure in our standing before the Lord. And we'll be eager to stand for truth, even when we must stand alone-for every consecrated woman will have times when she must stand alone.”
I think in today’s world it’s very easy not to feel much self-confidence. We are bombarded from all sides with the world’s ideals of what we should look like, dress like, and act like. If we know we are daughters of God, it’s easier not to buy into those ideals.
#2 - Knowing that we are daughters of God helps us resist temptation.
Elaine S. Dalton shared a story in the April 2010 GC talk that really illustrated this point. She said, “I have always loved the story of the son of King Louis XVI of France because he had an unshakable knowledge of his identity. As a young man, he was kidnapped by evil men who had dethroned his father, the king. These men knew that if they could destroy him morally, he would not be heir to the throne. For six months they subjected him to every vile thing life had to offer, and yet he never yielded under pressure. This puzzled his captors, and after doing everything they could think of, they asked him why he had such great moral strength. His reply was simple. He said, “I cannot do what you ask, for I was born to be a king.”
“Like the king’s son, each of you has inherited a royal birthright. Each of you has a divine heritage. “You are literally the royal daughters of our Father in Heaven.” Each of you was born to be a queen.”
#3 - Knowing that we are daughters of God helps us treat others with love and kindness.
When we know we are daughters of God, we have to acknowledge others are children of God as well, and need to treat them with love, kindness, and respect.
C. S. Lewis said something that I always found rather sobering: “It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you can talk to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship. … There are no ordinary people. … Your neighbor is the holiest object presented to your senses” (“The Weight of Glory,” in Screwtape Proposes a Toast and Other Pieces [1974], 109–10).
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